The Shorts

The shorts?! Whatda? Haha! Yes, it is! You read it, right. The shorts! Yeah, the shorts! I know. I know, it's kinda weird like why would I blog  this pair of shorts. It's just a plain jersey maroon shorts with yellow and black stripes as its sides. At first, it might look that there's no impact on you (yes, prolly) on me, too! (at first...) But yeah, it did. Just recently...  actually.

Anyway, just for you to know, guys, this pair of shorts was worn during that "day". (Wahaha, even I myself couldn't label it nor identify nor describe what it was, but, well, just go with this one and you'll know, though.) That "day" that made my life changed, my love life actually. To be more known to this guys, you can actually look or read one of the blogs before this entitled "Assurance in Trust" then you'll prolly.... 

At first, yeah, it was just a plain jersey shorts worn, as we Filipino's call it "pambahay", for everyday use. But when I saw that video, tadaa! It actually changed my life. Even I have thought of something too crazy to think about. Yeah! E. g. Killing thyself. Yeah, I was crazy enough that "day". Haha! Crazy me! I know. (Thanks for the one who cared, you know who you are guys!) But right now, whenever I see it. Damn! The flashback starts to rewind, like oh my gee, it was that pair of shorts he was wearing that freaking day. Oh my gee! Really! Well! I can't do anything about it now. Just have to move on... but yeah, it still has an impact. Yeah, yeah! Silly me to think of these things... Haha! Laugh it off! 

Na-Janine Tugonon ka na ba?

I'm gonna do this in Tagalog! Imbyerna eee....

Eto ung video na un, I don't know when to kinunan. Pero super imbyerna..  Though, oo! may karapatan naman sya para gawin ung mga bagay-bagay na gusto niya and all. But knowing na she's a beauty queen. I mean, in my own opinion, being a beauty queen should serve as a model, an inspiration to everyone most especially for the youth. Ibig kong sabihin, yung revelation na to infront pa ng madlang people at sa lahat ng nanunuod. Napaka-tactless ng ginawa niya! Napaka-rude! Mantakin mo naman, kasa-kasama niya pa ung "boyfriend" daw niya. and knowing na cool-off daw sila. at sabihing nakikipag-date? text2? Sabagay, di ko rin naman siya masisisi kung ipagpapalit niya tlga ung current jowa niya sa vocalist ng The Script. Well, pogi naman kasi tlaga. Pero on national TV! She didn't have to do that! Grr...

La lang! Affected lang ang peg! Trending tuloy siya! Everybody....

Na-Janine Tugonan ka na ba?

Back to You

Just browsing my Facebook homepage and I found out this song (so late! ahaha) from a friend's status. It has a good rhythm and a good tune, and I can say that it's "kantable". I did know this song before but i didn't care about it, since I couldn't relate to it. Cause I'm the type of a music lover but I'm more into the lyrics though. I know, I'm not the usual music lover who's into rhythm, tune or whatsoever. Anyway, it's really good! I hope you'd like it though... 

And the one in the video, (live), it has a good lead! Wow! I really want to learn that and fingerstyle of course... Nice one, dude!

Back to You

back to you 
it always comes around 
back to you 
I tried to forget you 
I tried to stay away 
But it's too late 

over you 
I'm never over 
over you 
something about you 
It's just the way you move 
the way you move me 

I'm so good at forgetting 
and I quit every game I've played 
but forgive me love 
I can't turn and walk away 

back to you 
it always comes around 
back to you 
I walk with your shadow 
I'm sleeping in my bed 
with your silhouette 

should have smiled in that picture 
if it's the last that I'll see of you 
it's the least that you could not do 

oh I will 
leave the light on 
I'll never give up on you 
leave the light on 
for me too 

back to me 
I know that it comes 
back to me 
doesn't it scare you 
your will is not as strong 
as it used to be 

Assurance in Trust

Something went awfully wrong last Sunday (April 8, 2013). That I mean was really awful. And that may be because of my stupidity and lack of trust to my other half, though. But it was really worth it. I saw something that made me think to kill myself in a way no one would ever imagine. I never really thought of it before until that incident that I didn't even thought would even happen. So much of an apology, so much of grievance, so much of the unworthiness, so much of these lack of feelings... But it did actually happened.

Never did I imagine, though I was thinking about it, not absentmindedly, but I was. Daydreaming, as you would call it, but then the instinct that I had was true and never was it wrong. I hardly couldn't bear the sadness I had felt the moment I saw that. It was actually him and his ex-girlfriend doing a nasty thing, read between the lines so that you can understand what I mean. Going back, yes, it's true. I approached him and him being the guy I didn't even imagine would be doing those things, not to me but to her. He said, assuring me actually, that it wasn't what I think and that it was so long ago. Yeah, true! It was back in 2010. But still, why would he keep those nasty things and not delete it, though.. Hmm, there am I again. Thinking over and over.. exaggerating the things that shouldn't be. But it's already there. There you go.

Anyway, since I couldn't handle it already, I talked to his sister about it. And truthfully, I was somehow relieved. I thought I would be actually hiding the tears all be myself, but I didn't. I didn't even waste a tear. I wasn't mad, got crazy, yes! But not mad. I was just...hurt. 

The best solution and the best advice his sister could ever give me that day, was to talk to him and tell him that I was really hurt. At first, I couldn't. I was really scared of what he'll answer. And what would he be hiding. But as I've told you, he assured me that it was nothing. Nothing, really. He just may be, told me, so I won't be hurt. I don't know really. Up to this very day I am writing this, still I can't let it just slip.. Trust is trust. Once it has been broken, never will it be mend.