Marriage

Marriage

As girls could see this picture, they'd be all gaga about marrying the guy they love. Proposal it is. Haha! Are you thinking of something? heck, no! Stop thinking about it. I'm not engaged yet, and I think I will never be. Marrying someone is not my thing. Marriage, duh? Infidelity always comes along marriage! Really not my thing...

It's just that I don't like it. I just really can't see myself wearing a long white gown with my boyfriend being the groom. But don't get me wrong. I love my boyfriend. It's just that I have this thinking that marriages don't last. Don't you guys agree? I mean, your partner right now may be the best among the rest partner, but that doesn't mean that he/she could be the best spouse. My friends would tell me that maybe I just couldn't find the attitude, behavior and the like in my boyfriend. The qualities of a husband I'm looking for to be exact. But really? I don't think so. He's good. Really! It's just that I really don't have this thinking of getting married (and maybe be stuck! Joke).

But there's a big BUT! If I were to be married, i prefer this live-in thing first before anything else. Being in a relationship not being in black and white and being in a relationship with all of these legal stuff don't differ from each other. Is there a difference? Na ah! See? And, if you're living in with your partner without getting married yet, then you'll see the if he's the one. I mean, just by taking care of the bills at home, how to take care of the house and the like. If he's really worth it for you to be stuck with your partner for the rest of your life. Do you get me guys?

One more thing. Boys, men,  please don't be mad but, really! You are so not contented with girls. Yes, you might be in a relationship but I swear, you keep on looking and searching for traits that your girlfriend hasn't. Get what I mean? Yes, girls aren't perfect. But, duh! So are you! Ha ha! Anyway, as I've said earlier, infidelity comes along marriage, as always. Married men, yes, might still be going home to their wives but do they know who's with them during the day? Yeah, a paranoia thingy, but I know! It's your nature. You can't help it! Like if you see a sexy long haired girl, wearing super mini skirt and a sexy top girl, I know you guys will go gaga all over that girl. Agree? For sure? Wait, I think I'm beginning to go bias. This is not about boys, ha ha! Let's go back!

That's it. I think I have already explained my side on why I don't want to get married. And as I end this article, I just want to share a conversation with you guys with one of my colleagues. 

Ate Ann: Ba't ba kasi ayaw mong magpakasal?

Me: Basta! Hindi mo rin naman maiintindihan.

Ate Ann: Anong gusto mo pala?

Me: Cge, Ganto na lang. Makikipaglive-in muna ko bago ko magpapakasal.

Ate Ann: Bakit naman?

Me: Syempre, iba naman kasi ung naghahandle kayo ng bills sa bahay. Di ba? Usapang pera na yan mahirap na yan.

Ate Ann: Ewan ko sau.

Me: Ahh, alam ko na! Pag naipasa na ung divorce dito sa Pilipinas, sige, papakasal nako. 

Ate Ann: E, mahal un!

Me: Edi right after namen magpakasal magiipon na kami agad para kung gusto na namin maghiwalay, edi go! 

Ate Ann: Baliw ka talaga. E, pagpapakasal pa lang mahal na!

Me: Exactly.

And we didn't stop arguing! :))

The Shorts

The shorts?! Whatda? Haha! Yes, it is! You read it, right. The shorts! Yeah, the shorts! I know. I know, it's kinda weird like why would I blog  this pair of shorts. It's just a plain jersey maroon shorts with yellow and black stripes as its sides. At first, it might look that there's no impact on you (yes, prolly) on me, too! (at first...) But yeah, it did. Just recently...  actually.

Anyway, just for you to know, guys, this pair of shorts was worn during that "day". (Wahaha, even I myself couldn't label it nor identify nor describe what it was, but, well, just go with this one and you'll know, though.) That "day" that made my life changed, my love life actually. To be more known to this guys, you can actually look or read one of the blogs before this entitled "Assurance in Trust" then you'll prolly.... 

At first, yeah, it was just a plain jersey shorts worn, as we Filipino's call it "pambahay", for everyday use. But when I saw that video, tadaa! It actually changed my life. Even I have thought of something too crazy to think about. Yeah! E. g. Killing thyself. Yeah, I was crazy enough that "day". Haha! Crazy me! I know. (Thanks for the one who cared, you know who you are guys!) But right now, whenever I see it. Damn! The flashback starts to rewind, like oh my gee, it was that pair of shorts he was wearing that freaking day. Oh my gee! Really! Well! I can't do anything about it now. Just have to move on... but yeah, it still has an impact. Yeah, yeah! Silly me to think of these things... Haha! Laugh it off! 

Na-Janine Tugonon ka na ba?

I'm gonna do this in Tagalog! Imbyerna eee....

Eto ung video na un, I don't know when to kinunan. Pero super imbyerna..  Though, oo! may karapatan naman sya para gawin ung mga bagay-bagay na gusto niya and all. But knowing na she's a beauty queen. I mean, in my own opinion, being a beauty queen should serve as a model, an inspiration to everyone most especially for the youth. Ibig kong sabihin, yung revelation na to infront pa ng madlang people at sa lahat ng nanunuod. Napaka-tactless ng ginawa niya! Napaka-rude! Mantakin mo naman, kasa-kasama niya pa ung "boyfriend" daw niya. and knowing na cool-off daw sila. at sabihing nakikipag-date? text2? Sabagay, di ko rin naman siya masisisi kung ipagpapalit niya tlga ung current jowa niya sa vocalist ng The Script. Well, pogi naman kasi tlaga. Pero on national TV! She didn't have to do that! Grr...

La lang! Affected lang ang peg! Trending tuloy siya! Everybody....

Na-Janine Tugonan ka na ba?

Back to You

Just browsing my Facebook homepage and I found out this song (so late! ahaha) from a friend's status. It has a good rhythm and a good tune, and I can say that it's "kantable". I did know this song before but i didn't care about it, since I couldn't relate to it. Cause I'm the type of a music lover but I'm more into the lyrics though. I know, I'm not the usual music lover who's into rhythm, tune or whatsoever. Anyway, it's really good! I hope you'd like it though... 

And the one in the video, (live), it has a good lead! Wow! I really want to learn that and fingerstyle of course... Nice one, dude!

Back to You

back to you 
it always comes around 
back to you 
I tried to forget you 
I tried to stay away 
But it's too late 

over you 
I'm never over 
over you 
something about you 
It's just the way you move 
the way you move me 

I'm so good at forgetting 
and I quit every game I've played 
but forgive me love 
I can't turn and walk away 

back to you 
it always comes around 
back to you 
I walk with your shadow 
I'm sleeping in my bed 
with your silhouette 

should have smiled in that picture 
if it's the last that I'll see of you 
it's the least that you could not do 

oh I will 
leave the light on 
I'll never give up on you 
leave the light on 
for me too 

back to me 
I know that it comes 
back to me 
doesn't it scare you 
your will is not as strong 
as it used to be 

Assurance in Trust

Something went awfully wrong last Sunday (April 8, 2013). That I mean was really awful. And that may be because of my stupidity and lack of trust to my other half, though. But it was really worth it. I saw something that made me think to kill myself in a way no one would ever imagine. I never really thought of it before until that incident that I didn't even thought would even happen. So much of an apology, so much of grievance, so much of the unworthiness, so much of these lack of feelings... But it did actually happened.

Never did I imagine, though I was thinking about it, not absentmindedly, but I was. Daydreaming, as you would call it, but then the instinct that I had was true and never was it wrong. I hardly couldn't bear the sadness I had felt the moment I saw that. It was actually him and his ex-girlfriend doing a nasty thing, read between the lines so that you can understand what I mean. Going back, yes, it's true. I approached him and him being the guy I didn't even imagine would be doing those things, not to me but to her. He said, assuring me actually, that it wasn't what I think and that it was so long ago. Yeah, true! It was back in 2010. But still, why would he keep those nasty things and not delete it, though.. Hmm, there am I again. Thinking over and over.. exaggerating the things that shouldn't be. But it's already there. There you go.

Anyway, since I couldn't handle it already, I talked to his sister about it. And truthfully, I was somehow relieved. I thought I would be actually hiding the tears all be myself, but I didn't. I didn't even waste a tear. I wasn't mad, got crazy, yes! But not mad. I was just...hurt. 

The best solution and the best advice his sister could ever give me that day, was to talk to him and tell him that I was really hurt. At first, I couldn't. I was really scared of what he'll answer. And what would he be hiding. But as I've told you, he assured me that it was nothing. Nothing, really. He just may be, told me, so I won't be hurt. I don't know really. Up to this very day I am writing this, still I can't let it just slip.. Trust is trust. Once it has been broken, never will it be mend. 

Fault in our stars

“There will come a time,” I said, “when all of us are dead. All of us. There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything. There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra, let alone you. Everything that we did and built and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this”—I gestured encompassingly—“will have been for naught. Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is millions of years away, but even if we survive the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever. There was time before organisms experienced consciousness, and there will be time after. And if the inevitability of human oblivion worries you, I encourage you to ignore it. God knows that’s what everyone else does.”

Thirteen Reasons Why

Thirteen Reasons Why

by Jay Asher

*Yes, my dear listeners, Courtney is nice to whomever she comes in contact with or whomever she's talking to. And yet, ask yourselves--is it all a show?

*You have so little control over anything anymore. And at some point, the struggle becomes too much--too tiring--and you consider letting go. Allowing tragedy...or whatever...to happen.

*I guess that's the point of it all. No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other people. Oftentimes, we have no clue. Yet we push it just the same.

*I pretended not to notice him. Not because I had anything against him, but because my heart and my trust were in the process of collapsing. And that collapse created a vacuum in my chest. Like every nerve in my body was withering in, pulling away from my fingers and toes. Pulling back and disappearing.

*Sometimes we have thoughts that even we don't understand. Thoughts that aren't even true--that aren't really how we feel--but they're running through our heads anyway because they're interesting to think about.

*If my love were an ocean, there would be no more land.

If my love were a desert, you would see only sand.

If my love were a star--late at night, only light.

And if my love could grow wings, I'd be soaring in flight.

*They went on to call Earth a knocked-up gaseous alien needing an abortion.

This is the list:

1.  Justin (her first kiss)

2 and 3. Jessica and Alex (2 former friends)

4. Tyler (peeping Tom)

5. a liar
6. 

Ms. Candy.... :(

March 22, 2013 
06:30-06:50 Korean Time...

Me: Did EBy call you?

Ms. Candy: Yes.

Me: Really? Why?
Ms. Candy: Eby calls?

Me: Call.
Ms. Candy: Ahh, Mari... Ahh... change. Teacher change.

Me: April maybe. But when will you change your teacher? 
Ms. Candy: Mari, find... Chatting! 

She wrote something in Korean in the chat box:
선생님이사정이 있어서 그만두신다고 하였다
Then, I copied and pasted it in Google Translate then I did understand it.

Me: me? Leaving? Bye-bye? Oh yeah! That would be next week, Wednesday.
Ms. Candy: Why?
Me: Kunyang. (Just) I will rest. I will not come back.
Ms. Candy: Yes?

Me: You will have another teacher.
Ms. Candy: Oh, I cried.. huhu

Me: Weh? (Why?) Chincha? (Really?) Joking!

And oh my God! She's really crying! 

Finding Nemo Quotes

Finding Nemo Quotes

Bruce (the shark) : I am a nice shark, not a mindless eating machine. If I am to change this image, I must first change myself. Fish are friends, not food. 
 

This is Bruce the shark with Marlin and Dory.

Crush (the sea turtle) : Saw the whole thing, dude. First you were all like "whoa", and we were like "whoa", and you were like "whoa..." 

This is Crush the sea turtle (the big one) with Squirt (his son) , Marlin and Dory.

Marlin (at the jellyfish field) : So, we're cheating death now, that's what we're doing, and we're having fun at the same time, I can do this, just be careful... 

Dory (at the jellyfish field) : Yeah, be careful I don't make you cry when I win! 

Dory (at the jellyfish field) : Give it up old man, you can't fight evolution, I was built for speed! 

Dory (to the little jellyfish) : I shall call him "squishy" and he shall be mine and he shall be my "squishy"

Dory and Marlin's conversation going to the  dark side of the ocean to get the mask...

Dory: Hey there Mr. Grumpy Gills. When life gets you down, do you wanna know what you've gotta do?
Marlin: No, I don't wanna know.
Dory (singing) : Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim.
Marlin: Dory, no singing.
Dory (continuing) : Ha ha ha ha ho. I love to swim. When you want to swim, you want to swim. 

Marlin (to Dory) : No, of course I like you. It's because I like you I don't want to be with you. It's a complicated emotion.

Marlin (to Nemo's father's classmates) : Well, you can't hold on to them forever, can you?

Gill : No, I'm the one who should be sorry. I was so ready to get out, so ready to taste that ocean. I was willing to put you in harm's way to get there. Nothing should be worth that.

This is Gill talking to Nemo in the fish tank.

Dory (to Marlin when Marlin was about to give up in finding nemo) : No. No, you can't. ... STOP! Please don't go away. Please? No one's ever stuck with me for so long before. And if you leave... if you leave... I just, I remember things better with you. I do, look. P. Sherman, forty-two... forty-two... I remember it, I do. It's there. I know it is, because when I look at you, I can feel it. And-and I look at you, and I... and I'm home. Please... I don't want that to go away. I don't want to forget.

Dory and Marlin

Marlin (to Crush) : How do you know if they're ready?
Crush (to Marlin) : Well, you never really know, but when they know, you know, y'know?

My student...Irene!

 March 18, 2013

Me: I will miss you.
Irene: Why?
Me: Kunyang (Korean for just). Nothing...
Irene: Why? You go out?
Me: Later after class. 
Irene: Aaahhh.... Ah, teacher! Teacher, will go? Go out EBy, March, April, May?
Me: March!
Irene: (dropped her jaw)
Me: Hey?!
Irene: Really? When? When?
Me: EBy will tell you.
Irene: You know when? Do you know date?
Me: Of course!
Irene: Ahhh... When? Tell me please.
Me: 27!
Irene: 9 days.
Me: 7 days left. 
Irene: Oh my God! Why?
Me: You will have a new teacher on April.
Irene: Why you go out EBy? Oh, why?
Me: Kunyang.. 
Irene: Tell me, why you will go out? Why?
Me: Because I will go home! Haha! Nah, just kidding.. Kunyang!
Irene: Oh my God.
Me: So April, May, June... So for 3 months, you will have a new teacher! 
Irene: And? Next?
Me: What do you mean next?
Irene: April, May June?
Me: Because your contract would end on June 3.
Irene: Ahh.. teacher! Bembum (Korean)
Me: What? What's lembum?

Irene: Thinking breaking!
Me: Why?

Irene: I will kakaotalk for you!
Me: When?

Irene: Anytime!
Me: Okay, I will not erase my kakaotalk. 

Irene: Oh teacher! 
Me: Don't worry, we still have 7 days left.
Irene: Ahh,
Me: On March 27, that would be my last day. So that would be our last day too!

Irene: Awwww!!! No!
Me: Bye bye Irene!

Irene: No!
Me: Well, anyway, don't worry, we'll still see each other still tomorrow. Bye!

Irene: Bye!

Aww.. I'm really gonna miss her. We're like friends. We can talk about anything under the sun. Aigoo! And they're really sad, too! :(

Angelaaaaa!!

March 11, 2013

She was already crying when I logged in. 

Angela: Why don't you do class?

Me: Huh? I'm doing the class.

Angela: No, not today.

Me: No class today?

Angela: No.

Me: What?

Angela: Why you don't... out?

Me: Me? Out? Bye bye?

Angela: Yes.

Me: When?

Angela: 27.

Me: Again?

Angela: 27.

Me: Teacher no class. Teacher on holiday... forever! Don't cry. We still have 2 weeks to go.

Angela: Yes.

Me: Is that the reason why you're cying?

Angela: You.. bye bye.

Me: On 27. Not today.

Angela: Yes, I know. My mom said.

Me: Did Eby call your mom?

Angela: Why you bye bye EBy? 2:59

Me: Because I have to. I will go another place.In another place, no EBY.

Angela: Yes

Me: But you don't have to worry because after me, another teacher will be very very nice.

Angela: No. (She started crying again)

Me: Don't cry please.. Maybe, another teacher.. very very pretty. Prettier than teacher.

Angela: No.

March 13, 2013

Angela: Teacher, the 31th, my birthday. 
Me: Oh no, I will not be here on your birthday
Angela: It's okay. 
Me: Maybe when you grow up, we....

Angela: Teacher! When is your birthday?
Me: My birthday is on 7/11.
Angela: Oh no!

Then I interrupted her and told her to continue with the lesson.

Me: Okay now, what is this?
Angela: It's a cow.And she started crying again! :(
Me: Oh, are you crying again? Why?
Angela: But your birthday...
Me: Why?
Angela: I want me and you. 
Me: What?
Angela: I want me and you on your birthday. 

"Patch Adams" Quotes

Patch Adams

-You're focusing in the problem. If you're focusing on the problem, you can't see the solution. Never focus on the problem.

-See what no one else sees, See what everyone chooses not to see... out of fear, conformity of laziness. See the whole world anew each day. 

Poems

My love

I love you since I met you

You hate me since then

I'm just asking for attention

But you never look back

I'm not asking for something 

Just allow me to love you 

The way I'm doing

In-love with you

I promise not to love someone

because I'm not ready yet

Then you came into my life 

And all has change 

I left my promise untrue

Cause I can;t keep the secret 

That I'm in-love with you

Before I felt

Never before I felt this way

There's a deep dark secret to say

I know my heart is only for you

And I know it's true

From an angel, he said

He was chosen for me

Deep Inside

I may not be so serious as you see in my actions

I may not say "I love you" as you expect me to say

You may not feel my gentle touch when you louch

You may not hear the thing I said about you

But my heart shouts with joy every time I see you

Cause love is not to say just "I love you"

Or to love is just now to hold you so close

Love is shown in mysterious ways 

You may thought that I don't care for you

You may thought that I don't love you

But this I know, I know for sure

That deep inside my heart

I really do love you

Fake Glare

Every time I wake up, all I wish is to see you

To comfort you, I will kiss you dearly

To be right there beside you so I can see you clearly

I love you with all my heart and soul

And I really love you so

You're close yet so far

You're in-love but not with me

What can I do?

I can't let you go?

Anything for love

Never in my life have I felt this way
Since the moment, I saw you that very day
I wouldn't ask for anything
Just understand what I am saying

You are the one that I adore
And I wouldn't ask for anything more
How I wish that I could always be with you
And there's nothing more, I wouldn't do

Realizing Love

Every time I look at you
I feel so strange
As if there is something new
And that it will change

I can't explain why
Or how I feel inside
As I look into your eyes
There's the feeling I can't hide

And yet I realized
That it was love
Wanting to burst out
And will give you everything I love

Bind of my love

I am thinking every time of what I will do
For this brain of mine, to clear its thoughts of you
For the moment I think, there is this feeling
That I'm gonna sink
From the very place I am standing 
I want this feeling to stop
But I just can't get you out 
Because all of my love for you I will bind

I did it myself. Sorry about these poems.. Haha! So lame....

The Hunger Games quotes

Hunger games

by: Stephanie Collins

- I learned to hold my tongue and to turn my features into an different mask so that no one could ever read my mind or thoughts. 

That's how I feel now, trying to remember how to breathe, unable to speak, totally stunned as the name bounce around the inside of my skull.

-Prim forgave her, but I had taken a step back from my mother, put up myself to protect myself from needing her and nothing was ever the same between us again.

-If I'm going to cry, now is the time to do it. By morning, I'll be able to wash the damage done by the tears from my face. But no tears come. I'm too tired or too numb to cry. The only thing I feel is a desire to be somewhere else. So I let the train rock me into oblivion. 

-And then he gives me a smile that seems so genuinely sweet with just the right touch if shyness that unexpected warmth rushes through me. 

-I call him my friend but in the last year, it's seemed too casual a words for what Gale is to me. A pang of longing shoots through my chest. If only he was with me now.

-For there to be betrayal, there would have had to been trust first

-Star crossed lovers desperate to get home together. two hearts beating as one. Romance.

Katniss's song for Rue

Quotes you can live by...

- Saying "I love you" is a major decision in one's life

These words should be kept in your heart 'til you're ready to commit 

to fight for that feeling

and to stand by those words forever

-Scientifically, a person's heart beats twice in a single beat

lub-dub

Figuratively, it beats for itself and for the other person

Maybe, that's why the doctor's claim a third beat is abnormal

See? No space for third party!

-Men say women always have paranoia attacks

But I say...

Women's instincts never fail 

It may not mean the exact whole thing about their men's thing

But surely, it means something

-Silence is a kind of therapeutic communication

But sometimes, it turns out to be non-therapeutic

Because in your silence, someone's feeling neglected

The Last Song

The Last Song

-By Nicholas Sparks

-I don't have too many lectures left in my time card

-Love is fragile and we're not always its best caretakers. We just meddle it through it into the best we can and hope that this fragile thing survives against all odds

-I'm having my PMS syndrome.. Y'know what that means? it's Pissed-at-Men Syndrome

-I like you more than a lot

-Truth only means something when it's hard to admit! Don't you get that? 

-Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes it makes you love them more. 

-We're not perfect. Any of us. We make mistakes, we screw up but then we forgive and move forward. 

-It's not. This is just another... another part of our terrific summer. Not one of the better parts I admit. 

Up

UP 

Ellie: It's America. But South! 

Russell: But Iwant to help!

Carl: I don't want your help, I want you safe.

Dug: I was hiding under your porch because I love you. 

Ellie: You don't talk much. I like you. 

It Started with a Kiss 2

It started with a Kiss 2

(My favorite lines and scenes)

Episode 11 

Xiang Qin:

I don't want you to see me crying. Why is it only me crying? Why aren't you sad, too? It shouldn't be like this. I can't take it. I can't take it anymore... Only I love you. You... You won't even look at me. You don't love me at all. Zhi Shu, you don't love me anymore?

Zhi Shu: 

Calm down.

Xiang Qin:

No. You have never loved me. Why did you marry me? I can't take it anymore.

-----------------

Zhi Shu:

It doesn't matter if it's jealousy, pain or deep sadness. These kinds of confusing human emotions were something I've never experienced. After meeting Xiang Qin, when she showed in front of me, these hidden emotions I have came out. I didn't know what to do and I was confused, anxious.

The only person Xiang Qin needs is me. Only when Xiang Qin is by my side can I be the real me. 

Xiang Qin:

Zhi Shu, is that true?

Zhi Shu:

It is. I've only recently realized I was jealous. I never thought it would happen.